It doesn’t sound proper sentence in English to me at first. But apparently it’s a valid term. This term came to my mind as recent events in my life, that when you have too many voices around you, it just confuses you. I decided to take a step back, try to get some distance hoping that I’ll be able to see it from different perspective. Or sometimes try to cool down first when I was too excited or emotional. There […]
What is it like on the other side
Last time I could only wonder what is it like on the other side? Or if I’m so and so who always busy traveling here and there, that must be nice. Or if I’m doing a, b, c then it looks cool. My friend told me, K.. the grass always looks greener on the other side. I didn’t really think of it back then, because I enjoy my daydreaming, imagining I’m somebody. You may heard of you are what you’re […]
Thanking life lessons
Ajahn Brahm mentioned in one of his talk that when you experience some hardships or pain or not pleasant experience, you should thank them and call them teacher. For example when mosquito kept buzzing near you, biting and sucking your blood, it teaches you patience and compassion. Recent experience that I have was trying to help out on some situation. I was asking around for help because of I don’t have capacity to perform and commit 100% to it due […]
Trying too hard to fit in
That’s the lesson this week. As a result, jaded and mentally tired me. Also, I tend to be more judgy towards things I see or hear. When you’re new to a group of people and you admire someone but the interaction happened one sided from your side, then it’s kinda tiring after sometime. I guess being part of community is good as you won’t feel alone in your journey. But sometimes it can be overwhelming. I didn’t realize it at […]
Seeing it from different angle
There were few new people joining the team I used to be part of. Sometimes I still go out for lunch with them. And one of the lunch talk was describing what I’m doing. At the end of the convo, that person summarized it from her POV and I find it refreshing. Sometimes I’m so used to describing what I’m doing to other people, to the extent of making fun or sarcastic to some extent. What I didn’t realize is, […]
悔しい (ku.ya.shi.i)
The dictionary translate it as vexing, annoying, frustrating, regrettable, mortifying I feel the translation is not hitting it 100%, but I’ll stay with frustration for now. Recently I went back to watch Gundam series in their YouTube channel (gundam.info) because I find it convenient to just click and watch from YouTube. In one of the episodes, the main character was having a dilemma after defeated by strong enemy. Then one of the role model characters told him, if you just […]
Does it really worth the effort?
In relation to my rescue, June, we went to adoption drive hoping to find her a good home. As I’m not a rescuer, more like accidental one because of her, I asked around few people about what needs to be done and so on. And it feels like opening a new world to me. Different groups or individual apparently different standard. There is no best practice. So I take all the inputs with open mind, evaluating the pro and cons […]
Procrastination
I have 2 weeks due of post which I haven’t done. If I finished this one, then I’m one behind. It’s a target I set to myself that I should do it weekly as reflection and appreciation of things happened to me that week. It’s a good memory as well when you’re flipping back the old books. Ah, this was happened during this time. It’s like Facebook Memory who give you pops up, what happened that day. Sometimes I simply […]