Category: attitude

anything that helps kartika angkawijaya during hard times, inspires or motivate her to go through those times

What I Learned From Leaving Things Unresolved

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Last week, I wrote about overthinking an unresolved situation and using one question to stop the loop: “Do I have new information?” You can read that post here A few days later, I finally did get new information. Nothing dramatic. Just a small sign that things were moving again. I felt relieved. But I was not particularly excited. That reaction taught me more than I expected. When communication changes, it is easy to treat the silence itself as an answer. […]

Maybe Silence Is Just Silence

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I realised something slightly uncomfortable recently. When I don’t reply to someone, I know exactly why. But when someone doesn’t reply to me, suddenly my brain wants an investigation. There is one topic a friend keeps bringing up in our group chat that I simply don’t enjoy engaging with. I still reply to her about other things. I’m not angry with her. I don’t dislike her. I simply stopped replying whenever the conversation goes back to that topic. Then I […]

Accountability, Guilt, and the Stories We Tell Ourselves

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A recent cat show made me realize something about myself. My friend, who was supposed to join me, couldn’t make it again due to work. It wasn’t the first time. I felt disappointed. At the same time, I found myself questioning whether I should continue showing Conan. Part of me wondered if I was being selfish. Conan is not the strongest show cat in the ring. He may eventually achieve his Grand title, but the journey will likely be long. […]

Part 1: Am I Lost, Or Am I Just Looking For A Different Kind Of Growth?

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A conversation with a friend recently made me realise something. The work I do today spans a surprisingly wide range of responsibilities. Product thinking, project management, eCommerce operations, process improvement, analytics, content, systems, stakeholder management, and occasionally getting hands-on when needed. It made me wonder: “Am I becoming a full-stack product manager?” Then another question followed shortly after. “Or am I actually lost?” Looking Back At A Previous Chapter When I reflected on periods of my career where I felt […]

AI, Attention Span, And The Fear Of Losing Depth

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One thing I kept questioning recently was: “Am I becoming worse at focusing because of AI?” I noticed my brain no longer processes thoughts the same way it used to. Previously, I could: Now my mind feels more: One thought quickly becomes: At times, it almost feels impossible to sit still mentally. Why Chat-Based Reflection Started Helping One thing I realised:my brain no longer enjoys processing in isolation the same way. Instead of: I now process better through: Talking through […]

When Helping Others Starts Turning Into Quiet Resentment

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For a long time, I thought my frustration toward certain people meant: Especially when I reacted internally to situations like: Part of me kept wondering:“Am I becoming cold?” But after reflecting more deeply, I realised the issue was not lack of empathy. The real issue was exhaustion from carrying too much. The Pattern I Started Noticing I realised I naturally become: Especially in: Because I tend to: Over time, people like this often quietly become the “buffer” in a group. […]

When You Outgrow Your Environment But Still Fear Becoming Arrogant

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One uncomfortable realisation I had recently:I no longer work or learn the same way as many people around me. At first, I thought I was simply becoming impatient. But after reflecting deeper, I realised the feeling was more complicated than that. It was not:“I think I’m smarter than everyone.” In fact, I fear becoming that person. The real discomfort came from feeling: That contradiction created more emotional tension than I expected. The Trigger Started From Group Work The situation itself […]

What ChatGPT Observed About Me After Hours Of Conversations

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At one point, I asked ChatGPT a simple question: “What have you learned about me from all these conversations?” What came back was not a personality test result or motivational quote. It was more like reading a behavioural reflection written by a neutral coach who had been observing recurring patterns over time. Some parts felt accurate immediately.Some parts made me uncomfortable.Some parts explained behaviours I had never fully connected before. This post is not about whether AI “knows” someone deeply. […]