I know, it’s way way late for this.
There had been some internal monologue happened offline. To post or not to post. My brain brought me to a rabbit hole of thinking why is this and why is that. It’s constant internal struggle.
Sometimes I also wonder why. I didn’t have such a struggle last time. I can channel my thought without any issues.
There was a period of time when you feel “alone”. Because you and your friends are at different phase of your life. So barely have time for each other. Group chat barely contains chat, more like someone makes “announcement” or talking to a void. People *may* respond, when you ping them personally.
Well, message is just like snail mail. I get it. But the delay in receiving response sometimes .. too much. And makes you wonder if you are just being deprioritized. Which is .. normal too. We are bound with our personal situation.
But my take on this is, yes, I’m bound with my personal situation, but I will make time for my friends and family. I didn’t reply instantly to few people usually because I simply procrastinate. Due to whatever reason. 👻
Anyway.. I guess that is kind of reminder that it’s okay to let go. When you’re holding on something too long / too tight, you may feel tired or hurt, so let it go.
That also includes friends.
Don’t need to think too much, why is this and that, and wonder if there is something wrong with you. It just happens. It’s part of life.
Don’t hold on into something that hurt you, unless you’re a masochist 🤪
Take it that it’s like playing kite, to make things flying high, you need to release sometimes, then pull.
There is so much you can do from one party, can’t be that you are the only one putting effort.
So, chin up. You’re doing fine. And .. don’t think too much ‘kay?
