Tag: reflection

Most of the time, I’m not fighting reality. I’m fighting the story I made up.

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One thing I’ve been noticing recently is this. Whenever something keeps replaying in my head, it’s rarely because of what happened. It’s because of the story I wrote about what happened. A comment on social media. An interaction at work. A disagreement. Feedback from a cat show judge. They all have one thing in common. The actual event usually takes less than a minute. The replay in my head lasts much longer. For example, I recently found myself getting irritated […]

Conan Was Never Meant to Be a Show Cat

A thought has been sitting with me over the past few days. Conan was sold as a companion pet. Not because he wasn’t a good cat, but because he wasn’t considered a show prospect. Yet somehow, he earned his Premier title. That made me look at his journey differently. Maybe he’s a companion pet… plus plus. Not a top show cat. Not the obvious choice for the ring. But good enough to stand alongside purpose-bred show cats and earn points. […]

When Other People’s Contradictions Get Under My Skin

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A recent cat show made me realize something about myself. It wasn’t the judging.It wasn’t the results.It wasn’t even my own experience. It was reading other people’s posts afterwards. One person talked about how uncomfortable cat shows were. Another focused heavily on the hidden costs and how little they received in return. As I read them, I noticed myself getting irritated. My first thought was simple. “You chose to join.” Nobody forced anyone to enter a cat show. If you […]

Accountability, Guilt, and the Stories We Tell Ourselves

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A recent cat show made me realize something about myself. My friend, who was supposed to join me, couldn’t make it again due to work. It wasn’t the first time. I felt disappointed. At the same time, I found myself questioning whether I should continue showing Conan. Part of me wondered if I was being selfish. Conan is not the strongest show cat in the ring. He may eventually achieve his Grand title, but the journey will likely be long. […]

AI, Attention Span, And The Fear Of Losing Depth

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One thing I kept questioning recently was: “Am I becoming worse at focusing because of AI?” I noticed my brain no longer processes thoughts the same way it used to. Previously, I could: Now my mind feels more: One thought quickly becomes: At times, it almost feels impossible to sit still mentally. Why Chat-Based Reflection Started Helping One thing I realised:my brain no longer enjoys processing in isolation the same way. Instead of: I now process better through: Talking through […]

When Helping Others Starts Turning Into Quiet Resentment

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For a long time, I thought my frustration toward certain people meant: Especially when I reacted internally to situations like: Part of me kept wondering:“Am I becoming cold?” But after reflecting more deeply, I realised the issue was not lack of empathy. The real issue was exhaustion from carrying too much. The Pattern I Started Noticing I realised I naturally become: Especially in: Because I tend to: Over time, people like this often quietly become the “buffer” in a group. […]

When You Outgrow Your Environment But Still Fear Becoming Arrogant

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One uncomfortable realisation I had recently:I no longer work or learn the same way as many people around me. At first, I thought I was simply becoming impatient. But after reflecting deeper, I realised the feeling was more complicated than that. It was not:“I think I’m smarter than everyone.” In fact, I fear becoming that person. The real discomfort came from feeling: That contradiction created more emotional tension than I expected. The Trigger Started From Group Work The situation itself […]

Happy New Year 2024

I know, it’s way way late for this. There had been some internal monologue happened offline. To post or not to post. My brain brought me to a rabbit hole of thinking why is this and why is that. It’s constant internal struggle. Sometimes I also wonder why. I didn’t have such a struggle last time. I can channel my thought without any issues. There was a period of time when you feel “alone”. Because you and your friends are […]