New change doesn’t necessarily means a better change.
That’s what I feel lately.
I miss the old wordpress where it doesn’t have blocks, where it’s just paragraph.
Maybe it’s just me feeling sentimental about oldies as currently Tiktok FYP is full of 90s boybands making comeback. Did you know that Spice Girls was 25 years ago? Gosh~
Had a catch up this weekend with friends who is going to go back to US as company is pulling expats to go back to HQ. She wasn’t even here for a year.
We chatted how different current practice and how we grow up (geez.. are we that old?) for example that these days seems like lacking of common sense. So when we see common sense, we reward it or celebrate it. Did the past have higher standard? Or would the current gen see us as uptight?
Lately i feel the struggle to concentrate on one task. The saying the struggle is real is real indeed.
But i think it’s due to the fact that i want to do things right. Then i tend to procrastinate. Otherwise i will think that it’s not good enough. I had many iterations inside my mind. I want to make sure it’s perfect when it goes out.
I had several fundraising items which is still in store room. Which reminds me of what my prev boss/mentor told me, that it’s good to have many ideas, but it’s better to execute it than just having it as idea.
I think i need to overcome the thought that it’s not good enough, which is in my mind. Then again, it depends on to whom i make that for. Is it for me? Is it for other people? For example, this blog. It was originally just for logging and memo about what i had learned or experience. But eventually i feel worried what if this and that.
To some extent, what happened at work also affecting me in reacting to situation in hand. That I need to give instantaneous response otherwise other people will eat into your lane kind of situation. Which kinda makes you need to up your game.
Another struggle i feel lately is about being calculative on how i’m going to spend my weekend. I had my time when i just go out all day, having back to back meetup with different friends, and only back in the evening to rest. How tired i’m that week, and if i want to spend my precious weekend with people instead of recharging for myself.
Okay, that’s it for this week ramble~ see you next post
