The first question popped is, how?
I usually will go into a “cocoon” mode where I try to run all the possibilities in my head. Till my head is about to explode, then I’ll stop. Sometimes I’m quite satisfied with it. But sometimes I still not sure.
Often I forget that if I discuss it with the right person, most of the times the solution is much simpler that what I have in mind.
Then, the next question is, is it really the right step?
As we talk to more people, we will have more information and sometimes can be information overload. As a result, back to square one where we can’t decide.
Lately I will just go with gut feel when that happens. At least, when I’m about to do it, I have the confident to perform it. And if it’s wrong, it’s like a learning process for my gut feel to be better next time.
But sometimes I compromise my gut feel that I will go against it. In my head there are two mini me which against each other. When turned out to be good thing, then one will tease the other and when turned to be bad, one will blame the other.
There were so much things in my mind last week when I was supposed to write the last post of 2019. The last week of the year. But I just couldn’t sort out my thought. So I decided to just not do it.
I decided to give myself extra care, gave the brain a little more rest, forgave me for some forgetful events and just be.
I think that’s the best new year gift for myself.
Thank you 2019, and nice to meet you 2020.
Happy new year friends.
