Looking back and connecting the dots

Third weekend since new year just passed, I think I kind of used to the rhythm of this year plan.

This week I had an interesting conversation with two people about what’s next for them. One of them is new to the workforce, while the other one is not.

The young cub told us his dilemma about finding a permanent job. Both of us shared our journey back then, about moving forward and be selfish for our growth.

I told him that most of those were my mentors’ words. Because I feel like having some anime moment when I can see stars in his eyes.

Rainbow eyes meme

As the conversation goes, I feel I need to hear them again. As a reminder.

Come to think of it, I always think that I’m in that cub position and didn’t realize that I’m not anymore.

As Ajahn Brahm said, young people will have young people suffering and older people will have their own. So I guess, I’m experiencing somewhere in middle. 😉

Thanks to the young one, I get reminded that you may have aspiration to be somewhere or be someone, but without you realizing it, sometimes you are the inspiration for others.

Steve Jobs said it’s about connecting the dots backwards, not forward. Where my dots will lead me to?

That’s yet to be found.. hehe..

Meanwhile, let’s enjoy the cool Singapore for awhile.

Yishun cat

PS: not my cat, he’s the neighborhood cat near my place I’m staying

Live a little more

PHILIP:
If I were mixed up with you
I’d be the talk of the town
Disgraced and disowned
Another one of the clowns

BARNUM:
But you would finally live a little
Finally laugh a little
Just let me give you the freedom to dream and it’ll wake you up

It was part of the lyrics from a song titled Other Side by Hugh Jackman and Zac Efron.

First movie in 2018 and it, was, amazing! I was having goosebumps when I watched the movie, and I still feel I have it when I was replaying it.

I really inspired with the character of PT Barnum. The movie highlighted that he was poor, living as office worker, started to lose his dream and live without passion then things happened. I won’t tell any further, no spoiler. He’s not perfect, but then his resilient to make things come true, really, got me.

I asked myself again, when will be my time to have this kind of moment. Especially when something happened, not in a so good way, the question usually just floats again.

But hey, I believe there will be a pop in your brain when it’s really the time. So, give your brain a break, don’t need to keep asking that question. There will be time for everything.

So, if you haven’t watched the movie, give it a go.

PS: Musical movie is a hit and miss to me, I slept while watching La La Land, but I was watching it in the plane. But hey, I really enjoying Les Miserables. Do you get the connection?

My 2018 missions

Happy New Year!

First post of the year is always dedicated to the first week in that year. And this post is written while I’m having road trip over the weekend with group of friends.

When I looked back (or flipped over my agenda), I thought of “did I really do that?” And when I saw the photos, the memories are starting to resurface. Yeah, I did. (Good job, give yourself a pat on the shoulder)

There were few firsts for me in 2017 and I’m really happy that I managed to accomplish them.

I mentioned in my prev post that I started to think about 2018 resolution slightly early earlier than my 2017. I guess, it becomes like a habit now. Having a list by year also helps. If I still have some left over items to tick, I’ll just carry it to the next year.

This year, I decided to give additional flavor by adding a theme for my missions. Refine and focus on few. (Or, the favorite terms in office was vital few)

The first half of the year is for sports, as usual, and the second half would be for non sports. Keep it balance. It doesn’t mean that I don’t need to do either one when it’s not the time yet. But focus on the theme of each half.

Enough some rambling about my missions. Have you thought of your goals this year?

PS: During the first few weeks of the year, I usually feel it’s still very far to reach the end. And when it started to pass mid year, everything just feel pass by so fast.

I hope 2018 will be kind to me as well.

See you next week, I’m going to have some catch up with sleep while we are en-route to next destination.

Hope you guys have a great time with your loved ones.

End of year reflection

So, this is it. We are at year end, or rather the last month of this year. It’s still first week, isn’t it? A little early to do it, no?

This post will be a long one. As these are dedicated to few moments in 2017.

Well, I think it’s never too early for anything, as having too much time sometimes make me procrastinate more.

First, about fandom.

Ever since I watched Thor Ragnarok, tumblr and Pinterest had sucked my soul. And after quenching the thirst of MCU, I feels like I should watch another British production.

So, I’m having catch up with Sherlock series by BBC. It’s overdue since few years ago. I know it’s another fandom, which can make you stay there forever.

When I proofread my blog, I’m reading it in Sherlock (or rather Cumberbatch’s) sassy tones. Really.

Fast forward few weeks, now is Christmas weekend and I finally completed my Sherlock catch up, with some replays in some of the episodes. That’s a good thing to do binge watch, I don’t feel tormented while waiting for the new episodes.

I tried to focus on just following Japanese only drama to practice listening, but I don’t feel the motivation anymore.

Lesson to note: don’t try too hard or go extreme on one thing. Be balance. Like diet, when you deprived yourself from one thing, the rebound will be double.

Second, about races in 2017.

This week, I tidied up my agenda, joined the first half which I took out, with the second half, prepped the 2018 agenda and rewrote the first 3 months into it.

I told myself, you did well in 2017.

Maybe, it sounds like self consolation, but I think, most of the times we didn’t acknowledge ourselves enough. Get jealous when friends are happy, competing who has more happy things or even sufferings. Strange isn’t it. But that happened to me sometimes.

After tidying up the agenda, it made me wanted to tidy up one of my wardrobe as well. The sport gears and the race bibs & medals. Here are the 2017 collection.

2017 medals

Then, it leads to find the precious years medals

All medals

I found the “key” that started all of these, it flashed back to 2010.

Yellow Ribbon 2010

“One ring to rule them all” for me is “one run to start them all” but I’m happy where I am today. Perhaps it’s one of the best decision I made few years ago.

Lesson to note: when you challenge yourself for something and you need to practice or train for it, it will teach you something. Whether you cross the finish line or not. It’s the journey.

(Which leads to) Third, about younger self.

I find that sometimes my younger self is wiser. When I read my past blog, or randomly found my notes/scribble commenting on my life events or decided to do something (most of it on impulse) which makes my current self think it was a great decision or cool thing to do or try.

Or maybe I’m just getting old and sentimental :p

Lesson to note: being organized is good, but embrace the mess, then you’ll have less stress. Consider the risk, and be spontaneous like your younger days. Take the leap.

Fourth, about relationship

I learned *A LOT* from people around me this year. I learned first hand that not all of them are genuine. Friendship and/or relationship need 2 hands to clap. You can’t be the only one, always, making effort. It’s hard to let go at first, but I think it’s necessary to move on. But, through that journey, I also find gems. The people who genuinely care about you. There are 2 types of people will come to your life, to care about you and to teach you something.

Lesson to note: trust with caution. Don’t afraid to open up first. Reach out. Be warm. Be genuine.

Lastly, about priorities.

There was a quote in Pinterest sometime ago, since tumblr and Pinterest had owned my souls for the past 2 months, that if you’re not willing to change, don’t complain about the situation you’re in. Sometime I dragged myself to take action, but I kept complaining about it. You’re not a tree, do something.

While there are few things had been bugging me, some are milder than the rest. And again, I repeat the mantra that don’t rush it. Take it easy. Do it one thing at a time.

Lesson to note: there will be time for everything. Things may seem to fall apart, but it allows right piece to come at the right place.

So, that’s it! Merry Christmas! And Happy New Year. May the force always be with you.

Luffy Christmas

Thank you 2017. You’re great. Thanks for all the life lessons, friendships and adventure.

Hope 2018 will be kind to me. I’ll be at your care. 2018年よろしくお願いしますね。

Breaking out from our shell

Last week we have a year end dinner with colleagues and as usual, there was an award presentation for long service with the company.

One of them is our top leader.

In his acceptance speech, he said that he was quite laid back person until his wife decided to quite her work, to focus on their family. He added that his wife was having a good career, better than him. At that point of time.

Her sacrifice made him able to focus on his career. To evolve into the current him.

I find his sharing about earlier part of his life journey was quite inspirational.

At that party I asked myself, when will I have that moment? To have the heart to leave some of the things I really like to do now and focus on the few activities only.

I find it easy to adopt a new thing, make it to be a habit, but I have difficulties cutting them down. Eventually I dropped a few to date, through “natural selection”. As the time goes and I don’t have time to do it. And mostly my logical self made me to do the important things first.

It also reminded me of what one of my friend told me sometime back. That at certain stage of my life, I’ll turn into someone who is boring and safe. He sees me as someone who thinks life is like adventure and big playground.

(Phew)

I haven’t found the answer yet, whether I’ll change quite drastically, or when I’ll have that moment, or what kind of person I’ll be in 5 or 10 years time.

But one thing I know, life is like running a marathon. It’s a long run. Rushing it won’t help me to reach it faster as I might ran out gas earlier and walk at much slower pace to complete it.

Do you have similar experience like this? Did you find the answer? How did you overcome it?

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I thought this is a teen drama like Juno, but I was wrong. It was deeper than just a drama. This movie drew my attention while browsing what movie I should watch during flight to Shanghai because of Emma Watson and Ezra Miller. You know Emma Watson, but Ezra caught my attention because of The Flash in Justice League.

And with Ant-Man inside too.

There are many memorable lines, but there are two which I find very memorable:

One, which I feel so meaningful is

Sam: Why do I and everyone I love pick people who treat us like we’re nothing?

Charlie: We accept the love we think we deserve

which actually what Bill, Charlie’s teacher told him earlier.

It made me think, that are we being picky then? Or will you stay in bad relationship and endure it, because you think you’re not deserve better?

Anyway, I’ll let that line linger in my mind for awhile.

Second line which I really like is

We can’t choose where we come from but we can choose where we go from there

quote

It’s just like the water which gives hope in the desert. Okay I was being too dramatic here.

By the way, there is a continuation of the conversation between Charlie and Bill

Charlie: Can we make them know that they deserve more?

Bill: We can try.

So, it’s really a good movie. It made me laugh, cry and think about many things. If you haven’t watched it, give it a go.

And let me know what do you think. Or share your fave lines from the movie.

Mid week random thought

After watching Thor Ragnarok I found a new MarvelOTP #Thorki

chibi thorki

I used to adore #Clintasha who is portmanteau from Clint Barton and Natasha Romanov

Anyway with the army of Marvel fan in Tumblr or Pinterest, it’s easy to be sucked in into world of shipping, really. You can find many pairings too.

Then I saw a post saying “when you shipped your OTP, it’s actually something that you look for in your relationship”

(I can’t seem to be able to find the post anymore. It took me awhile to post this, because I was hoping to find the post)

So, looking at my OTP list, no wonder I’m still single. I’ll need to find another OTP then 🙂

My first “ultra” run

This is the last sport check list item in 2017 to be cleared, and it’s a huge one too. People say close it with a bang. So I guess this is mine for 2017.

Usually I plan my sport till mid year and leave the second half for the non-sport resolution but I notice that I was slacking off, really, in 2016. So I’m trying to spread it out till end of year.

As I’m going to the event in my head the image of Valkyrie from Thor Ragnarok saying “Here we go” is getting stronger.

Pre-race thought

In my checklist, besides gears, there are others like nervous or excitement, which seems taking turns.

Preparation is something I always feel not there yet, but I take it that life is like that too. Sometimes you just need to dive in head first. Although having enough preparation will make you more confident and less injury.

Oh right.. To my friends who are taking JLPT, let’s do our best. I’ll contribute my “JLPT”.

My friend said take it easy, one kilometer at a time, which I’ll say that to myself. Many times later.

Post-race thought

I feel cheated! Because I signed up for 42.195km but it seems not only me who has distance discrepancy

Will I run full marathon again? Maybe.. I’ll give another thought after recovery

I’ll skip the drama before the race, as my running buddy like to say, every run is unique by itself. And the drama is part of the bundle.

From the start, I told myself that I don’t need to rush, it’s really tempting to run faster when the road is clear, or sucked by people around you. This is my race not theirs. So, no matter how tempting it is, stick to your plan. And it did work! Despite few stitches I had after 30km mark. I stopped for stretch and put some Salonpas. As saying said, don’t forget to sharpen your weapon.

What stressed me was to reach the 38+km before 12:30, as it was stated the cut off timing. After experiencing drama in the morning, I only flagged off around 6+. But maybe that stress gave me an extra push?

And, I did shout to 41km sign, how I love to see it. Hah!

Although I just barely made it to the finish line, the silver lining is I have the photographer to take few nice shots for me (or at least I thought so :D)

Never try, never know. And I tried.

2 bananas, 6 Gu gels, 1 Wieder jelly, 1 Gu Chomp, few Face ID problems, and countless 100Plus Active and water.. (incl trips to toilet) later, I crossed the finish line.

Yes, this post is half written pre-race and the other half is post-race. I can’t possibly write while running, right?