Happy New Year!
Can’t believe 2020 just went past. It would be a lie if it was passed slowly, but as we gotten used to with the new rhythm, it felt it’s just passed by. Don’t you think so? No? 😅
I was looking back at my blog for 2020. And it’s a little quiet. As quiet as desert 🏜 and I can hear the crow croaking. 🤣
One of the reason, not excuse, I simply shifting my priority to cats, whether it’s playing, or napping with them. The other reason is, I’m trying not too over thinking about things like in the past, but I try to exchange that thought with someone.
As new year tradition, let’s do reflection what happened last year.
Quarter 1. Jan-Mar
- I came back from my work assignment in Warsaw for 3 months at the end of 2019. I decided to do home trial for a ginger kitten , 4 months old, as addition to my furrmily.
- I went back to my hometown to celebrate Lunar New Year. On the last few days in my hometown, the panic buy due to COVID-19 happened in Singapore. After 6 weeks, I decided to officially adopt the cat and we are officially adopt her.
Quarter 2. Apr-Jun
- Singapore in lock down, patients number was growing, everyone is working from home. My friend and I were involved in 2 abandoned cats. Luckily we managed to rehomed her.
- At work, just before the end of the quarter, the last week, it was decided that I was transferred to support ASEAN. I bid goodbye to the global role, to the team members whom I led for almost 2 years. At time time I didn’t think of anything, but it was the start of a situation I’m in.
Quarter 3. Jul-Sep
- I volunteered to be a foster pawrent. It was interesting learning experience.
- At work, I was put in the middle of situation which has been tangled since I joined. It was a lie if I didn’t feel discouraged and lost. What am I supposed to do there? What value I can bring to the table. It’s for the first time in my life, I felt so lost and .. questioning lots of things. I fell sick easily too.
Quarter 4. Oct-Dec
- The cat I’m fostering, was having several failed attempts of going for home trial, last minutely. Adding on to the work situation, it was kinda demoralizing further. But the rescuers are still quite hopeful, so, let’s just keep trying. Some rescuers also told me that some will take longer time.
- At work, I decided to take one step at a time. I stop trying to be okay, and just say when things get overwhelmed. I used to think that I have strong mentality and think that the hashtag mental health is just .. a trend. But never experience it, you will never know. Although I never said it, but I guess I have doubt some of my friends who has some issue. For that, I’d like to say sorry to my friends whom I doubt internally. 🙏🏼
Some of the key takeaways are:
- When someone did bad things to you, there *will* also be good people will help you. Treasure those.
- A reminder, everyone faced different challenges and has different thought process and priorities. When you’re saying “I understand what you feel” as a response to anyone frustration, you’re not listening to their plight. You just use convenient statement to shut it. Because you will *never* able to understand them.
- System will never be fair. It will still lean to one of the party inside the system. It’s really irritating and frustrating when the unjust happened to you, but it’s also up to us, how we want to react to it. Attack it straight on? Or deal with the situation smartly? Or just let it go?
- Sometimes what happened to you, despite the bitterness, could be a way of life to show you about what’s next for us. 😁 so maybe it’s just showing you that one of the road in the intersection is not worth to continue.
- Your worth is not just based on one aspect of your life. Never doubt your personal value when someone trying to put you down. Don’t you remember seeing a life lesson you saw sometime ago, “when someone is trying to bring you down, it means you’re above them”
Anyway.. I will.. try to write more often. I realise that writing it as journal, will help me to look back, how wise I was 🤣 *kidding*. Oh well, see you again in next post.
