A wise friend always advises me (and other friends) when you’re in doubt, or doesn’t feel well, or basically when you have something troubling your mind, go for a run.
I always reply, I’d rather do something else than that. However, I have to admit that sometimes it’s easier to just put on your sneakers and run, whether it’s a slow one or fast one, or perhaps just do a walk. (Depending on the degree of the matters, I find that speed will follow how big or small your trouble is. It’s better to run fast for big problem.. ha ha)
Today I joined 2XU run and, honestly, I didn’t prepare much. I had been having nightless nights and doesn’t feel really well for the past 2 weeks. Before the race, I used to have butterfly in my stomach but most of the time it’s because whether I can wake up on time and do my morning pre-run ritual.
But this time is different. I’m nervous, because I didn’t have much training. I thought of DNS (did not start) for the first time. However part of me, the stingy one said, you have paid for everything why you didn’t go. What a waste.
I even told my running buddy whom is my emergency contact (this is not best practice, don’t follow me) about my physical condition. Just in case.
The run started late, there was a technical glitch so my friend and I only flagged off 5am (the first wave was 4:30). While waiting for the start, there were few times when I thought of turning back and decided not to continue. “Every race is different. Every race has its own story” was echoing in my head and I thought, maybe this time is my DNS story. My tummy was rumbling, signing nature calls, just right after the flag off. So, I decided to find nearest pit stop.
I don’t recall I have so many conversation between my brain and my heart during a race. But I guess, there is always first time for everything. Why I ran? What’s the purpose? What am I trying to prove? For whom and so on.
I have one tough fur kid at home, and it has been occupying my mind for the past few days. But I guess, what my fellow cat moms (and dad) suggested is true. Sometimes you just need to investigate and pay attention to them. They can share their (fur kids) stories but different (fur) kids are different. I just need to keep trying to find what is working for us.
In the end, I really glad I decided to give it a go, and I told myself that listen to your body as the distance goes. Never, push yourself too hard because there is always another race.
Okay now I have 1000 calories allowance for the day.. let’s indulge a little bit today, after my Japanese class! Osu!
So, I think sweat it out really works for me to calm myself down. What do you do when you are troubled with something?