Resolution Tree

My first post in 2011.

Learning my last year lesson, I had made my resolutions now. I found my last year resolution note and I feel that I think I should be SMART-er when it comes to make my this year resolution.

New Year Resolution

Here are some tips to make your resolutions easier:

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Yeah, I’m getting closer to my dream actually

On a recent casual talk with one of my best friends, he asked me whether I have achieve my chilhood dreams.

I used to have many dreams. My dreams were changing from time to time although some remains the same. I believe that those which stays are those I want it badly. Back to his question, what are my dreams? It took me a while to recall my dreams.

getting closer

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On shortening words

Some questions to ponder:

  1. When you’re using your mobile phone, do you prefer texting or making a call?
  2. When you’re online, how do you usually type your conversation? Do you use “thx”, “btw”, “asap”, “fyi”, “lol” and many other often?
  3. Do you use number to replace certain texts, for instance 4 -> for, 2 -> to?
  4. Do you active participant in certain forums?

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on recent depression

( ̄へ ̄) {a little confession note to myself for what happened this week}

(´~`) むにゃむにゃ

Blame it to lack of sleep,

I felt have no energy left to face the day. I don’t have motivation at all since the morning I wake up. Why and why is the question I like to ask myself. On my effort to find out the answer, I even feel more depressed.

( ̄へ ̄)

Blame it to others behavior,

I was easily fumed or irritated by what my so-called friends do. Here are some of the examples which made me hate or angry to the other party. First, by making me feel that I’m the biggest idiot who patiently draw and color while the person’s effort is “only” googling and combining the game engine then leads to the second thing which is ruining my beautifully-written-and-structured-library-according-to-my-standard when that person combined those. Third, making me played guess-what-i-am-trying-to-say by pointing here and there and mumbling in the morning, sorry my brain took it as compiled error. …

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Learning about priority…

I was absent writing for three days and within that span, I faced one of my biggest fears. Trying my best to get a job.

This is started on Monday evening, I received a notification about phone interview, to determine whether I’ll be needed to fly over for the second test – technical test or not. If I passed this, it’s like half way to go – for my next job. I was so exciting about it, since I sent many applications yet I didn’t hear any news from them. This was the first reply that I had. I asked my senior who already worked there – I’m doing my homework, finding out necessary information which may help me during the interview, browsing through the company website and reading e-books about preparing to be interviewed.

Everything was fine until Wednesday. Suddenly, my other laptop was not operable. It kept displaying Windows Welcome Screen when my brother wanted to use it in the morning. It was hardly to believe, since earlier I was still be able to use it.

*Darn! This will be the third laptop to fix within the last two months. My mind started to panic, since I haven’t backed up any data there, I have my master degree class material, my resume – basically all my data were there.

My concentration was splitted.

After playing badminton with my ex-colleagues, I started to work on that laptop in the evening. I cannot figure out what’s wrong with it. And luckily, my other laptop has been recovered and I was able to browse thourgh the Internet from my other laptop, try to find out the problem and the solution. It took me close to midnight, till I decided to give it up and go to sleep. Well, learning from the experience, doing something past 10 pm will not bring any good, besides my head was aching probably exhausted after the games in the afternoon.

I remembered very clearly that Thursday is the Day. However some of my head was still thinking about the laptop. I was “still” working on my laptop almost the whole day, then somehow, I chatted with some friends and I was able to back to focus again for the interview.

The interview was a bit stiff in the beginning. I was stiff, since I haven’t use English for conversation close to half a year. Oh man! I felt that i was able to give the explanation as neutral as possible. Then after the interview session which took an hour and so, I felt surge of relief. I went to see a friend to pick a CD which might help me to repair my laptop.

This morning, I mentioned about yesterday interview to my senior there. He asked me how was the interview yesterday,  I told him that I thought I was doing fine. Surprisingly, it was not as smooth as I imagined. Well… I was shocked too, somehow. During the discussion, he gave me lots of advices. I was so sad, because most of what he told me was right.

After the conversation, I contemplated about what am I dreaming and reaching about, do I do what I need to do to get there, or do I really want to get that job badly or is it because of something else?

I know, this is the first interview since I sent those applications, and this is the first response that I received. Yet I was down because I heard the “result”. I felt a bit lost :p I turned on my laptop, browse things randomly, until I read one of my writings – which I wrote last year.

From me to me,

As we known before, life obviously is more than just ticking our to-do list.
Other may see it like that, and I just don’t.
Will it be a problem for me?
My answer is no.
It’s my life, like Bon Jovi’s song.
I could find hundreds of reasons to argue with them,
however discussing it with people who disagree with me is more interesting to do.
The reason is I could see different perspective how people see (their) life.
They might try to make me agree with them, try to intimidate me, or the worst thing is try to scared me off.
That’s okay, just let them be.
It’s a natural thing, I did that too sometimes.
When people are in doubt, they will feel more secure by knowing that somebody is agree with them.
People are afraid to be alone, in unknown situation.
If I were in that situation, what will I do next?
Remember, life is about making choices and this is about you afterall not them anymore,
What kind of choices are you going to make?
What kind of person you wanted to be?
Even, you could choose, how you will react to those?
Angry, happy, disappointed, glad?
And always remember, arguing won’t solve the problem.
You might win the situation, but not the heart.
Your winning in that situation is just temporary satisfaction.

Rich people want a simpler life,
Poor people want a better life,
Young people want to be older and wiser,
Old people want to be younger and sillier,
You see, human being are the most difficult being to be pleased.
We have a lot of things to be owned, achieved, and done.

Be peaceful with yourself!

Do one thing at a time, then do the other thing at the other time.
By doing different things you will not get bored easily.
You always have something to do.
When you eat your favourite dishes, usually you will save the best for the last.
Do that!
Enjoy the “journey”, enjoy every moment when you are doing something.
So, you will remember those as a nice memory.
Or even when you had unpleasant things, just enjoy it because it means you get different things.
By thinking like that, you shift your frequency.
You wouldn’t that pissed anymore.
(from Ajahn Brahm)

How about if you had to juggle with different things in the same time?
The answer is still the same, enjoy it.
See it differently, from different point of view.
See it that, you are capable now, for doing a lot of things.
See it that, you will do things differently now.
Out of your habit.
A challange.
An adventure! Like in RPG.
It’s just the matter how you deal with things,
nothing is related with “yourself” anyway.

The point is, enjoy your life.
Be yourself
which means, don’t let others intimidate or scare you.
Just agree with them if they are trying to do it, it will piss them off. (Ajahn Brahm, again)
which means, do something according to your age.
If you are young, just do like young people do, let it loose, don’t be afraid to try different things.
When you are old, be happy with it, which means you have experience in a lot of things.

So, which kind of life do you want?
Just ask your heart
Listen to it

By being happy with your life, you will influence people to be happy with their life.
Happy is contagiuos!

I feel somewhat better and my spirit lifted-up somehow. I was supposed to have hang outs with old university friends this evening and previously I was thinking to skip it, yet I felt that I need different atmosphere. I joined them and I really felt much better now. Well, at least I can see it clearly what actions should be taken after this.


A Mayonnaise Jar and 2 Cups of Coffee

I read this story from a mailist quite sometimes ago, which I forgot which mailist and who posted it.

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous ‘yes.’

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

‘Now,’ said the professor as the laughter subsided,

‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things–your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions—and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.  The sand is everything else—the small stuff.’

‘If you put the sand into the jar first,’ he continued, ‘there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.  Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first—the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.’

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled. ‘I’m glad you asked.  It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.’