Happy New Year 2024

I know, it’s way way late for this. There had been some internal monologue happened offline. To post or not to post. My brain brought me to a rabbit hole of thinking why is this and why is that. It’s constant internal struggle. Sometimes I also wonder why. I didn’t have such a struggle last time. I can channel my thought without any issues. There was a period of time when you feel “alone”. Because you and your friends are […]

About taking test

Surgeons are put through rigorous tests just to get in the game. We endure decades of anxiety-provoking acronyms. SAT. MCAT. USMLE. ABSITE. And if we pass that gauntlet, we are rewarded with the need to log 850 surgeries and take an 8-hour multiple choice and oral exam. There is almost no time to take in the victory. Or even a nap. Researchers studied why some people perform better on tests. They found that it’s not necessarily related to intelligence. Some […]

About Humility

How good are you in …  Was one of the most memorable question asked to me this week. During chat with a friend around strength and weakness, she noticed that I diverted to say what is my strength, so she asked why it was so hard for me to say it. I replied my friend that because I don’t think I’m good enough, as there is someone better than me. And maybe it’s the upbringing thing that made me can’t […]

Week 10 entry in 2023

New change doesn’t necessarily means a better change.That’s what I feel lately.I miss the old wordpress where it doesn’t have blocks, where it’s just paragraph. Maybe it’s just me feeling sentimental about oldies as currently Tiktok FYP is full of 90s boybands making comeback. Did you know that Spice Girls was 25 years ago? Gosh~ Had a catch up this weekend with friends who is going to go back to US as company is pulling expats to go back to […]

Hello 2022

It’s been awhile I haven’t been blogging here. But this year I’m planning to be more regularly back to this space. I don’t like to rant usually. But let’s take it this time is special come back 🤣 Sometimes it’s irritating when you’re sharing your thought process about your finding and the other party just say that I’m anyhow and saying it with condescending vibe that I’m such a failure When you’re doing analysis there are many ways If I […]

Hello 2021

Happy New Year! Can’t believe 2020 just went past. It would be a lie if it was passed slowly, but as we gotten used to with the new rhythm, it felt it’s just passed by. Don’t you think so? No? 😅 I was looking back at my blog for 2020. And it’s a little quiet. As quiet as desert 🏜 and I can hear the crow croaking. 🤣 One of the reason, not excuse, I simply shifting my priority to […]

Hello March!

I haven’t been posting weekly like I used to do it in previous years. I feel jaded and posting for the sake of posting. Chased by the reminder that I need to tick this to move on. So, this year I tried something different. I’ll just post at least once a month and it’s more as reflection what had happened in previous month. So here are some of my lesson learnt in February On dealing with kid. I adopted a […]

When did the last time you’re being honest to yourself?

It can be related to something you want, or perhaps your feeling. The most common “pretend” for me is pretending that I’m okay. Sometimes because of physical condition, i.e. sick, or emotional, when things are just overwhelming. Pretend can be about feeling too, that you don’t like it, but you decided to hold it for the sake of other party. But whatever pretend it is, it’s not healthy. When something is building up, it will explode sooner or later. Can […]