Nothing to lose

My sensei said, when we are worried about something big like exam, don’t be. Just ダメもと (dame moto).

Dame moto is short form of ダメでもともと (dame de moto moto) which means nothing to lose. 

Even if you fail the exam, doesn’t mean our ability decrease. We just go back to square one or our original state. 

When we never challenge ourselves, how can we tell we are growing? 

My “you’ll thank me later” moment

It’s almost 2 weeks ago since I started a new habit to wake up earlier and allocate some time to do some drills in the morning before taking shower. 

I have no issue waking up in the morning (most of the days) but there are times when I just want to play my game longer in the evening before going to bed. And I find it hard to wake up in the morning. 

So, there are times when I dragged myself out of bed, with my brain pulling up all sort of cards to keep myself in bed, to fulfil the plan. 

As a result, I feel accomplished throughout my day because of the completing the small self-bestowed mission. 

The brain likes to pull this card before my exercise time. But brain also likes the refreshed feeling after exercising. Difficult to please eh.. 

Anyway, thanks to not listening to brain by pushing through the original plan, brain is actually benefited from this. 

This reminds me that sometime ago I always have pain on my left knee when I run more than 10km. I was inspired to be able to run full marathon and I was thinking if I should change my dream because my left leg won’t be able to take it. 

But I went ahead to run my first HM and sore for the whole week. 

Long story short, I still run as per today. 

What I learned from this is, there will be times when we doubt ourselves. When we faced our first road block, when we failed for the first time, when everything seems to tough or something didn’t turn out as what we want it to be. But! Keep going. Take a rest if you feel you need to, take smaller steps. Just keep going.. 

And “you’ll thank me later” moment will follow 🙂

Happy weekend! 

Mind channeling

Mental contentment is to accept situation beyond our control and channel the negative energy to a positive thoughts (tri_spirit)

A quote I saw last week which reminds me that how tough the situation is, it’s up to me how I will act on it. 

So, I’m telling myself, if I have some worries and can’t get it out from my head, rather than worrying it or panicking, let’s go out, do some jogging or swimming or cycling or maybe just walking. Get my head refreshed and maybe I have idea how should I do to solve it.

And another quote is

I like thinking big. If you’re going to be thinking anything, you might as well think big. (Donald Trump)

Happy 26th week

This week is a mark of half a year in 2015. Time flies isn’t it? 

I hope everyone is doing well! With all of your resolution. 

I found a little encouragement from WordPress, a reminder that I started blogging 6 years ago.  wordpress achievement
Second half of the year, please be kind to me. 🙂  

A small talk that made my day

The boy was studying for his exam when I reached home. He was only Primary 4, my land lord’s son. The helper told me that he’s inspired to study IT in the future, to be like me. (Wow!)

He added, so that he can play games while working since he will be facing computer whole day.. (Ahem.. that’s not the good motivation boy.. Or I can say, I used to think the same thing too. How I chose IT because I like to play games)

The helper added, he wanted to be able to travel to different places like when I was having some business trip (his mom shouted, why don’t you become flight attendant instead? And I heard he said, walking in plane is dangerous..)

It was a tiring day for me and this convo made me forgot how tired I was.

(I was supposedly to post this on 23 Oct, but for this and that reasons I was forgot to publish this)

To be honest with ourselves

I remember clearly that on one fine day, while I was working on my website project, one of my flatmate entered my room and asked me, “How can you build a website?”

Looking at her while my hands were typing some HTML code, and replied “Why not?”

Let me share you my story.

I’ve been playing with HTML, CSS, Javascript, PHP, ASP, for quite some time. I admit that I’m not the best coder among my peers. I enrolled into IT faculty by accident (which I can share in different post later), struggled during my first year, but hey, I managed to be graduated on time, with a cum laude. How awesome is that?

I’m not trying to brag, but I proud of myself. I give a pat to myself that I can survive the storm. And I ended up really liking it.

My journey isn’t always with HTML. I started by becoming application developer using Borland Delphi (it’s a Pascal based) then picking up Java and followed by learning .NET. In the middle of it, I picked up HTML, CSS and Javascript not because I have a huge interest on it, but because I like to blog.

It ended up, I worked with HTML more than of those I learned before I know HTML. Even it started by accident, I found my passion. HTML and web design.

I played around with Joomla on my weekend, updated my blog layout/design, or working on projects on my spare time. Why? Simple, I like it. It has been my interest.

Remembering that, I smiled and gave my flatmate another answer, “Why not?”

So, let me ask you a question. What is your interest? What is your passion?

Remember why you are here

Recently I listened to a design talk, one of the speaker begins her presentation with a slide titled, “Remember why you are here”. And following that title, there is a sentence, “I started this field because I’m passionate about [blanks]”

This brought my memory back to a book I read in the past, a self help book on to find joy about your work.

I’m sure working can be exciting to us yet horrifying to some of us. It’s either we have bad times at work (which I don’t need to name one by one) or simply we feel like a square in a round hole, a.k.a, we feel don’t fit with what we do.

Every time we’re starting something, we are getting very excited and looking forward to experience it. But as the time goes, when the honeymoon period is over, or after we face few high walls (the wall after is somehow taller than the one we just faced). We are drained, our energy are sucked up. This is suck, it’s not working for me any more, I need a new one, I quit!

Whoa! PAUSE!

Everyone of us arrive in the place wherever you are now, because we chose it to be there. We are living in the modern world where we have all the choices, unlike the people before us. (I like the way the speaker summarizes this). The generation before us, maybe, they don’t have choices. They just work to provide their family.

Anyway, there must be some reasons what encouraged us to be at the place we are at. But when you asked yourself, we vaguely can remember those reasons. All the things that creates some sparks inside.

So, where all those that drive us gone?

  1. Often, we let what happen around us drive us. We allow it, whatever it is, to pollute our inner voice.
  2. Or we don’t confident enough to be ourselves, because people around us are playing politics, so we also need to play it too. Or people around me are serious and if I’m being cheerful it means I’m not serious enough.

The bright side is, never to late for anything, the old saying is true. I believe that. So, even you’re not new any more in your work place or maybe you’re new on something. Grab a pen, find a note, and start scribbling.

  • Write down as many items as you can, why you are here? It can be why you’re doing the job you’re doing, or why you are living in the country you are right now if you’re living in foreign country, or even why you’re taking a Japanese class.
  • Stick that into your wall, or maybe keep them in your phone/wallet/cubicle. See those again when you don’t feel that you lose yourself. It will help you to keep in line with where you want to go or want to be.

So, don’t waste more time. Start doing it, if you can’t do it now, put a reminder! 🙂

Finding my carrot [revisited]

In relation with my post earlier..

After sometime since I was asking question about what are the things that motivates us, I have the answer for myself. I have my “carrot” and I have my “stick”.

I use myself as example, my carrot is to produce a piece that will amuse people, a website in particular. I like to create something that is visually appealing to be enjoyed by people.

My background is not from creative line, in fact, from the technical background. I learned to develop website before I realized that I have interest in user interface design.

This is interestingly challenging for me. The reason is my peers are not in the same interest as I do, therefore I have to take the extra miles to be what I want to be. Thanks to the Internet, social media and any other online learning platform, which helps me a lot to learn.

Another thing I realized is, though you know your carrot, the road may still seem difficult to take. We will still face some bends along our journey, or some hills.

Then it’s the time for our “stick” to help us. Sometimes it seems difficult to find out what are the sticks for us, and one of the easiest approach is by finding out what I don’t like to do; the thing I avoid. That’s my stick.

To summarize, here are the steps that we can use to find out what are the things that motivates us:

  1. Find out what are the things we like to do, and it would be better if it’s a consistent activities that we do, not just impromptu activity that we do it on impulse. Have a talk with friends who know us well, by saying out loud it helps us to have determination. Or self talk will help too.
  2. Once we decided, stick to it.
  3. When we face challenges along the way, don’t deter.
  4. Find out what are the things we don’t like, it helps us to stick to our carrot. It also tests us whether we are really want that thing badly.

So, do you agree with me? Please share your thoughts.