About overwhelmed

It’s time for the (work) mid year review.. (oh no) That’s what I feel this week. I did my homework, preparing about things to discuss with boss. I was quite confident that I’m okay this time. But I wasn’t. Again I was humbled. That after the session I went spiral down that I’m not good enough, my justification was seen as excuse, why I can’t meet certain goal up to this year. Tried to voice out, but feels just slammed […]

About taking test

Surgeons are put through rigorous tests just to get in the game. We endure decades of anxiety-provoking acronyms. SAT. MCAT. USMLE. ABSITE. And if we pass that gauntlet, we are rewarded with the need to log 850 surgeries and take an 8-hour multiple choice and oral exam. There is almost no time to take in the victory. Or even a nap. Researchers studied why some people perform better on tests. They found that it’s not necessarily related to intelligence. Some […]

Making time for things that matters

This article reminds me of some sayings that “There is no such things as no time, but it depends on whether the thing is mattered to you”. My sensei sometimes asked in the class how we see “working from home”. I said it’s great since we have flexibility to do some work at home, and some of my classmates agree with this too. But she said, she doesn’t like it. It means there is no separation between work and non-work […]

Do one thing you can do

This week lesson is no matter how good your cause is, but if you’re bashing or bitching about other people actions, I find it less meaningful. There is always a reason behind every action, some might try very hard on justifying it, but whatever it is, good or bad. I find it’s toxic to see it. But some take it like a drama. (Maybe I should change my mindset) I did unfriend few people cos they like to share sad […]

What is it like on the other side

Last time I could only wonder what is it like on the other side? Or if I’m so and so who always busy traveling here and there, that must be nice. Or if I’m doing a, b, c then it looks cool. My friend told me, K.. the grass always looks greener on the other side. I didn’t really think of it back then, because I enjoy my daydreaming, imagining I’m somebody. You may heard of you are what you’re […]

悔しい (ku.ya.shi.i)

The dictionary translate it as vexing, annoying, frustrating, regrettable, mortifying I feel the translation is not hitting it 100%, but I’ll stay with frustration for now. Recently I went back to watch Gundam series in their YouTube channel (gundam.info) because I find it convenient to just click and watch from YouTube. In one of the episodes, the main character was having a dilemma after defeated by strong enemy. Then one of the role model characters told him, if you just […]

For Love’s Sake 2018 Movie

Or the original title is “恋のしずく” It looks like ordinary drama at first but I decided to give it a shot since the Japanese movie selection in Polish LOT was limited. Turned out, it’s a normal drama indeed. But sometimes there is a beauty in the ordinary. So, one takeaway from it was, you need to face your problem. Which is obvious, but it’s a good reminder. The main character and the co-star were having different problems all together. And […]

What’s your village?

There is a saying it takes a village to raise a kid, and I started to believe it too. Having 2 cats is nice, just that I keep missing my fur kiddos when I need to travel. Because I need to make arrangement for them. So I was helped by my mom, to take care of them. Or kind and trusted cat sitters, or boarders. They are my village when it comes to my fur kiddos. Or extended fur kiddos, […]