Why do you need to train so hard?

I don’t like working up a sweat or out of breath, buuuuut.. I don’t dislike sharpening my skills and leveling up – Kozume Kenma, Nekoma High (Haikyuu!!)

Immediately I screamed (silently) Kenma you’re my inner character. Well except I’m not any teams’ brain like him to Nekoma.

He is depicted as quiet guy, absorbed in game, laid back personality and never gets excited. And he wasn’t into volley ball until his childhood friend and neighbor introduced him to the sport.

You should read the manga Haikyuu!! Or watch the anime. It wasn’t pulling me instantly at first, but being a volleyball player during my high school, I continued reading it and I become attached to it.

Kenma’s line reminds that I’m not particularly gifted when it comes to physical activities. As casual player, I can do it, but never beyond it. My running speed is average, my agility is average, and many more. If anyone can do it after few trials, I probably need to put double (or maybe triple) of the effort to be able to do it.

Sometimes I asked myself why I do still do it? Why I push myself that hard?

Well I guess, the feeling of leveling up makes me happy. And you know that the higher level you are, you need to grind more, aka put more time or effort, to level up.

So, why I’m running or swimming or cycling? I guess, I want to be better. As Garmin tag line would be #BeatYesterday

However, I need to be more honest to myself. If I really want to do it or liking something, I need to admit it too.

On meditation

I’ve been wanting to join a meditation journey after hearing one of my friend who often went for a week or two meditation retreat. Because he came back refreshed after the trip.

My friend mentioned that in one of his trip, he was having walking meditation and I thought, how could you meditate while walking?

But recently, I think that it is actually doable. Because during long running alone, I always have a good long talk with my mind and just trying to focus on one thing, completing the it.

And sometimes the route seems very supportive to help us having it (ha)

It happens not just during running, even I have it during long distance cycling too. But at least it’s safer to do it.

So.. maybe we will have a new branch, running meditation 😀

Some of my friends probably will scold me, can we do it in more relax way, like sitting or walking?

The pain needed to grow

Back in 90s there is a TV show called “Growing Pains”, and I grew up watching it. I didn’t think much about the meaning of title back then.

Sometime ago, Ajahn Brahm also mentioned in one of his talks about growing pain.

Pain is usually associated with bad or negative energy, unpleasant feeling, and no one wants it. It’s not always about the physical pain like bruise, but it can be one too.

When you’re aiming to complete something but didn’t go smoothly.

For example, there are times at work when I was so caught up with the situation I’m in. I thought, why can’t we have a smooth work. There are many factors contributing to it, aren’t it?

Or when you’re trying to run a marathon, when you just want to finish it but your legs won’t just cooperate.

At first, those pains make me upset, disappointed or irritated. But I start to appreciate it as pit stop. When things just move smoothly, sometimes I tend to forget what happened around me.

Tired mind could be caused by ourselves, we think too much, or take the damage to ourselves. Muscle pain because we hardly exercise or we do it wrongly. So let’s embrace them.

As things are happened for a reason.

Do you have any growing pains moment lately?

The only competition I’m having is

While last week I was inspired by my sensei’s word,  but this week I get my inspiration through this talk in YouTube. The talk appears in the recommendation to watch list. I like it so much and I shared the video in my LinkedIn too.  Within Simon’s video and what sensei told us, there is a similar message.

Simon mentioned that there are 2 type of games or competitions, finite and infinite. Players in finite environment tend to have mindset to win it. On the other hand, in infinite environment, players are playing to keep the game going.

He used Apple as example. Apple doesn’t always get praises from their customers, however they are focusing on up-ing their own product than defeating the other players. There are days when you perform slightly below average, but that’s okay. Learned from it and be better.

These days, I’m practicing running and swimming quite a lot. However, I felt that I’m still no good for swimming although as in compared to before taking the class, I felt there are some improvement.

Few friends told me that they were bad at first too. Believe in yourself, keep practicing, and one day, you’ll get better.

So, my running time is not that great, but as in compared to me running 6km for the first time in 2010-2011 under the rain back then which took me almost 1 hour to finish it, now I can run 5-6km comfortably.

About swimming, when I’m thinking about it.. I only started to be able to swim breast stroke somewhere around 2005-2006 and I hardly swim (or exercise =_=!). Then, only lately learning free style again. So, in terms of mileage in the water, I’m still a baby.

There is still long way to go Kartika. Don’t lose sight of it and remember to keep improving your miles. In land and water.

And, participate in one race at a time, do your best to complete it then challenge it again.

Let’s challenge it (again)

One of my Japanese classmate passed her N1 recently. To me, it’s like the pinnacle of mastering the Japanese language because I’m still holding N3 since few years ago and haven’t done my N2 again since failed to pass it around 2 years ago.

I’m going to give it another go this year, but was distracted with other goals which also requires me to put sometime grinding experience, so hopefully next year I can take it. (No more excuses Kartika, okay?)

Sensei added, why don’t you still take it (N1) in 2 years time, so that you will be able to know how much you had grown. And to keep the motivation to learn going.

Why I didn’t think of that before?

So far, similar to my PMP, or certain license, they will ask you to do a refresher course to maintain the license or certification.

One of my running buddy has a mission to join running event for the same distance when she ran in that event for the first time. To find out what’s her timing like year by year.

For me, who only started to run regularly around four years ago, I started to find some favorite running events to join. But I didn’t think of making it as reevaluation about my running time.

How about you? Do you have any activities which you always do as rechallenge?

What I wish that I know when I was

J.K. Rowling said that in her Harvard commencement speech. She said that she was racking her head what should she share in a commencement speech. So she thought that what she wished to know when she was at the same age with the graduates.

Her words made me think, what are the think I want to tell my younger self? Or maybe what would my future self would tell the present me.

(I’m sure that Luffy wouldn’t want to hear it. Because it won’t be fun anymore.)

One thing I can think of now, if I can tell my younger self would be, write more. Whether it’s a scribble, a diary, or just a shoutout. Daily if possible.

My sensei usually will ask this question during lesson, anything interesting happened in the past few days? And as usual, most of us will just smile at her. She will make a comment that we are not paying attention to life, and as if, living it in auto-pilot mode which makes us easily forget what happened around us, during commute, at home, or at work. She said, write a diary, write about the weather, clothes we wear that day, food we eat and so son. The year after that, you can read what did you eat and eat the same food this year. (Interesting idea ne)

I like to write diary. I was writing my diary in English when I was in junior and high school time. As practice. These days, I’m writing it in Japanese with same purpose in mind. As practice. When I’m in my hometown and found my old diary, I had a good laugh by reading them.

Two years ago, I wrote a time capsule message to the 2020 myself. Honestly, I can’t recall at all what did I write that day. I’m looking forward to the day to open it. Then I’ll write another one to the 2025 myself.

Back to J.K. Rowling’s speech, there is one thing that I like the most. It’s about humility to know that life is difficult, complicated and can be out of control. Even an adult might still have the greatest question in life, what I want to do. So, take your time as life is not a race to complete a checklist.

As my sensei always advised us in the class, try to do things differently, and as you get different result, you will find life will give you more colour. Like greeting her “good morning” when our class is in the evening, or keeping a diamond in a watermelon.

Just have some fun~!

To be a neighborhood Spider-Man 

Have you watched Spider-Man? Do you like it? 

This post might have some references to the movie so, spoiler ahead. I’m actually not a big fan of Spider-Man, but I saw a lot of positive reviews from my friends. So, I decided to give it a go. (*ahem* at least I can see RDJ) 

Overall, it’s very enjoyable to watch this Spider-Man movie. So, here are the 3 key things I learned from it

Continue reading “To be a neighborhood Spider-Man “

What’s your tactic? 

I was stuck. Playing Pokémon Shuffle. In one of the card mission to get Lucarionite. This has been quite sometime, so I decided to google it up. And some other gamers also experienced the same problem. 

Apparently, I misunderstand the mission instruction. 

Then, I saw a link about different stage problem and few ways of solving it. 

It made me think that a game can be very deep when it comes strategizing it. Well, most of the games I play is either puzzle or RPG, so naturally it comes with it. While I don’t play a lot of hack and slash game type, but I think it might have some tactics still. 

When it comes to test, I’ve been hearing it’s more about the tactics, like do this first, then pay attention to this and this. 

Of course learning about the exam material itself is important but if you know the tricks of the test, it seems easier. 

Do you usually try to crack it yourself? Or are you going to build a tactic?

PS: Now I’m thinking, does that mean if I know the tactics for life, it will make the test from life easier?