The pain needed to grow

Back in 90s there is a TV show called “Growing Pains”, and I grew up watching it. I didn’t think much about the meaning of title back then.

Sometime ago, Ajahn Brahm also mentioned in one of his talks about growing pain.

Pain is usually associated with bad or negative energy, unpleasant feeling, and no one wants it. It’s not always about the physical pain like bruise, but it can be one too.

When you’re aiming to complete something but didn’t go smoothly.

For example, there are times at work when I was so caught up with the situation I’m in. I thought, why can’t we have a smooth work. There are many factors contributing to it, aren’t it?

Or when you’re trying to run a marathon, when you just want to finish it but your legs won’t just cooperate.

At first, those pains make me upset, disappointed or irritated. But I start to appreciate it as pit stop. When things just move smoothly, sometimes I tend to forget what happened around me.

Tired mind could be caused by ourselves, we think too much, or take the damage to ourselves. Muscle pain because we hardly exercise or we do it wrongly. So let’s embrace them.

As things are happened for a reason.

Do you have any growing pains moment lately?

The only competition I’m having is

While last week I was inspired by my sensei’s word,  but this week I get my inspiration through this talk in YouTube. The talk appears in the recommendation to watch list. I like it so much and I shared the video in my LinkedIn too.  Within Simon’s video and what sensei told us, there is a similar message.

Simon mentioned that there are 2 type of games or competitions, finite and infinite. Players in finite environment tend to have mindset to win it. On the other hand, in infinite environment, players are playing to keep the game going.

He used Apple as example. Apple doesn’t always get praises from their customers, however they are focusing on up-ing their own product than defeating the other players. There are days when you perform slightly below average, but that’s okay. Learned from it and be better.

These days, I’m practicing running and swimming quite a lot. However, I felt that I’m still no good for swimming although as in compared to before taking the class, I felt there are some improvement.

Few friends told me that they were bad at first too. Believe in yourself, keep practicing, and one day, you’ll get better.

So, my running time is not that great, but as in compared to me running 6km for the first time in 2010-2011 under the rain back then which took me almost 1 hour to finish it, now I can run 5-6km comfortably.

About swimming, when I’m thinking about it.. I only started to be able to swim breast stroke somewhere around 2005-2006 and I hardly swim (or exercise =_=!). Then, only lately learning free style again. So, in terms of mileage in the water, I’m still a baby.

There is still long way to go Kartika. Don’t lose sight of it and remember to keep improving your miles. In land and water.

And, participate in one race at a time, do your best to complete it then challenge it again.

Let’s challenge it (again)

One of my Japanese classmate passed her N1 recently. To me, it’s like the pinnacle of mastering the Japanese language because I’m still holding N3 since few years ago and haven’t done my N2 again since failed to pass it around 2 years ago.

I’m going to give it another go this year, but was distracted with other goals which also requires me to put sometime grinding experience, so hopefully next year I can take it. (No more excuses Kartika, okay?)

Sensei added, why don’t you still take it (N1) in 2 years time, so that you will be able to know how much you had grown. And to keep the motivation to learn going.

Why I didn’t think of that before?

So far, similar to my PMP, or certain license, they will ask you to do a refresher course to maintain the license or certification.

One of my running buddy has a mission to join running event for the same distance when she ran in that event for the first time. To find out what’s her timing like year by year.

For me, who only started to run regularly around four years ago, I started to find some favorite running events to join. But I didn’t think of making it as reevaluation about my running time.

How about you? Do you have any activities which you always do as rechallenge?

What I wish that I know when I was

J.K. Rowling said that in her Harvard commencement speech. She said that she was racking her head what should she share in a commencement speech. So she thought that what she wished to know when she was at the same age with the graduates.

Her words made me think, what are the think I want to tell my younger self? Or maybe what would my future self would tell the present me.

(I’m sure that Luffy wouldn’t want to hear it. Because it won’t be fun anymore.)

One thing I can think of now, if I can tell my younger self would be, write more. Whether it’s a scribble, a diary, or just a shoutout. Daily if possible.

My sensei usually will ask this question during lesson, anything interesting happened in the past few days? And as usual, most of us will just smile at her. She will make a comment that we are not paying attention to life, and as if, living it in auto-pilot mode which makes us easily forget what happened around us, during commute, at home, or at work. She said, write a diary, write about the weather, clothes we wear that day, food we eat and so son. The year after that, you can read what did you eat and eat the same food this year. (Interesting idea ne)

I like to write diary. I was writing my diary in English when I was in junior and high school time. As practice. These days, I’m writing it in Japanese with same purpose in mind. As practice. When I’m in my hometown and found my old diary, I had a good laugh by reading them.

Two years ago, I wrote a time capsule message to the 2020 myself. Honestly, I can’t recall at all what did I write that day. I’m looking forward to the day to open it. Then I’ll write another one to the 2025 myself.

Back to J.K. Rowling’s speech, there is one thing that I like the most. It’s about humility to know that life is difficult, complicated and can be out of control. Even an adult might still have the greatest question in life, what I want to do. So, take your time as life is not a race to complete a checklist.

As my sensei always advised us in the class, try to do things differently, and as you get different result, you will find life will give you more colour. Like greeting her “good morning” when our class is in the evening, or keeping a diamond in a watermelon.

Just have some fun~!

Random notes from last week

Don’t you feel amazed when you started to tidy up some of your stuffs and as you look through it, you started to think, why it seems I was wiser yesterday?

1. I took out some pages from my agenda, it’s been half a year in 2017 but I still kept all the planner pages from beginning. It makes my planner thinner now. In one of the page I wrote few lines which I heard from a Japanese movie, Honnoji Temple.

Dream is not about possible or not possible. Nor big or small. But whether you want to do it or not.

2. When your kebab gives a quote of the day

There is two rules for being successful. One is figuring out what you want to do. And two, doing it.

3. Running long distance wasn’t my cup of tea, but as I ran together with my friends, I feel I can run forever

To be more confident, follow these

  1. Do few baby steps, and do it right. It will make you feel good and confident.
  2. Once you get it right, add the intensity or steps or do it for longer period.
  3. If it wasn't going well, stop and reflect.
  4. Then repeat the last one when you're succeed.

Those were my swimming coach advice to us this week.
She often asked us, how do we feel, did we do this or that, and so on. Because it's easier to correct it when we, the doer, aware about what and how we do it.
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Running at our own pace

"Don't rush it. I know you want to finish the length of the swimming pool but I want you to focus on your stroke and follow the *beep* of your timer. Now you need to do it right and constant pace. Not doing it fast." that was my coach said to us during our lesson this week.
She also said that it's easy to just go faster but we will feel exhausted before the entire distance we supposed to cover.
This Saturday I went jogging with my friend and after 2km mark, I looked at my 735XT, it was showing around 7:40 but my heart rate (HR) was already at up high (zone 5) because of the hills.
Anyway.. my brain relates these experience to normal daily life that, sometimes we have different milestone than our friends, some might get married first, some might already have their house while others might have great career.
We run at different pace in our marathon called life.

  • There are times when you need to run harder during the hills till your lung screams.
  • There are times when you are just cruising at steady pace.
  • Or there are times when you're walking to recover.

But as long as you're still running, isn't it okay?

PS: I don't really get the science behind making use the HR data to run more efficiently. And according to my triathlete friend, try to be at zone 3 – forever running zone as much as possible.

The art of waiting

I don't always dislike waiting, because it actually allows me to read or play games while waiting. What I don't really enjoy is the outcome of waiting.
For example, you're in line for getting rare merchandise or limited food quantity for quite some time and when your turn is up, you don't manage to get it.
While some people have more patience, I find myself on the impatient side.
Can you wait patiently? Or you like to move fast?
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