The art of taking a break

My friend often told me that I tend to arrange things back to back. And as a result, quite often I was rushing from one place.

I feel accomplished when I finished all my errands. And I think it’s somehow addictive to me.

Until recently, I easily fell sick due to pack activities. Or rather, my mind was quite tense maintaining all the details for the errands.

And when you fell sick, your physical strength drops so, it will make you rethink what’s important and what’s not.

Suddenly things which you think it’s important, doesn’t seem so important anymore. Your body tells your mind that, why don’t you leave it for now, and come back to it later.

When you’re healthy, you feel like at the top of the world, want to conquer the seven seas and can even go to the moon.

Don’t keep pushing your luck. Or rather your own body.

Don’t you think in the end, how fast you complete it doesn’t matter?

Old saying said, when it rains, it pours. It’s true to some extent. If we already pack our time till no more time left. Doesn’t it also mean that we don’t allow for deviation? No more space for other changes. When changes happened, we (or rather I) tend to be panic.

Know your body, know your priorities, and when it’s time to rest, just rest. Things to work on will never get finished. It applies both to work and personal.

I think I should learn more from cats. They know when just to curl up and rest, and when to be active and play.

Cat in shoe box

(Again, not my cat. It’s just a neighborhood cat which like to use me as his scratch machine :p)

Don’t you think so?

Looking back and connecting the dots

Third weekend since new year just passed, I think I kind of used to the rhythm of this year plan.

This week I had an interesting conversation with two people about what’s next for them. One of them is new to the workforce, while the other one is not.

The young cub told us his dilemma about finding a permanent job. Both of us shared our journey back then, about moving forward and be selfish for our growth.

I told him that most of those were my mentors’ words. Because I feel like having some anime moment when I can see stars in his eyes.

Rainbow eyes meme

As the conversation goes, I feel I need to hear them again. As a reminder.

Come to think of it, I always think that I’m in that cub position and didn’t realize that I’m not anymore.

As Ajahn Brahm said, young people will have young people suffering and older people will have their own. So I guess, I’m experiencing somewhere in middle. 😉

Thanks to the young one, I get reminded that you may have aspiration to be somewhere or be someone, but without you realizing it, sometimes you are the inspiration for others.

Steve Jobs said it’s about connecting the dots backwards, not forward. Where my dots will lead me to?

That’s yet to be found.. hehe..

Meanwhile, let’s enjoy the cool Singapore for awhile.

Yishun cat

PS: not my cat, he’s the neighborhood cat near my place I’m staying

Live a little more

PHILIP:
If I were mixed up with you
I’d be the talk of the town
Disgraced and disowned
Another one of the clowns

BARNUM:
But you would finally live a little
Finally laugh a little
Just let me give you the freedom to dream and it’ll wake you up

It was part of the lyrics from a song titled Other Side by Hugh Jackman and Zac Efron.

First movie in 2018 and it, was, amazing! I was having goosebumps when I watched the movie, and I still feel I have it when I was replaying it.

I really inspired with the character of PT Barnum. The movie highlighted that he was poor, living as office worker, started to lose his dream and live without passion then things happened. I won’t tell any further, no spoiler. He’s not perfect, but then his resilient to make things come true, really, got me.

I asked myself again, when will be my time to have this kind of moment. Especially when something happened, not in a so good way, the question usually just floats again.

But hey, I believe there will be a pop in your brain when it’s really the time. So, give your brain a break, don’t need to keep asking that question. There will be time for everything.

So, if you haven’t watched the movie, give it a go.

PS: Musical movie is a hit and miss to me, I slept while watching La La Land, but I was watching it in the plane. But hey, I really enjoying Les Miserables. Do you get the connection?

My 2018 missions

Happy New Year!

First post of the year is always dedicated to the first week in that year. And this post is written while I’m having road trip over the weekend with group of friends.

When I looked back (or flipped over my agenda), I thought of “did I really do that?” And when I saw the photos, the memories are starting to resurface. Yeah, I did. (Good job, give yourself a pat on the shoulder)

There were few firsts for me in 2017 and I’m really happy that I managed to accomplish them.

I mentioned in my prev post that I started to think about 2018 resolution slightly early earlier than my 2017. I guess, it becomes like a habit now. Having a list by year also helps. If I still have some left over items to tick, I’ll just carry it to the next year.

This year, I decided to give additional flavor by adding a theme for my missions. Refine and focus on few. (Or, the favorite terms in office was vital few)

The first half of the year is for sports, as usual, and the second half would be for non sports. Keep it balance. It doesn’t mean that I don’t need to do either one when it’s not the time yet. But focus on the theme of each half.

Enough some rambling about my missions. Have you thought of your goals this year?

PS: During the first few weeks of the year, I usually feel it’s still very far to reach the end. And when it started to pass mid year, everything just feel pass by so fast.

I hope 2018 will be kind to me as well.

See you next week, I’m going to have some catch up with sleep while we are en-route to next destination.

Hope you guys have a great time with your loved ones.

End of year reflection

So, this is it. We are at year end, or rather the last month of this year. It’s still first week, isn’t it? A little early to do it, no?

This post will be a long one. As these are dedicated to few moments in 2017.

Well, I think it’s never too early for anything, as having too much time sometimes make me procrastinate more.

First, about fandom.

Ever since I watched Thor Ragnarok, tumblr and Pinterest had sucked my soul. And after quenching the thirst of MCU, I feels like I should watch another British production.

So, I’m having catch up with Sherlock series by BBC. It’s overdue since few years ago. I know it’s another fandom, which can make you stay there forever.

When I proofread my blog, I’m reading it in Sherlock (or rather Cumberbatch’s) sassy tones. Really.

Fast forward few weeks, now is Christmas weekend and I finally completed my Sherlock catch up, with some replays in some of the episodes. That’s a good thing to do binge watch, I don’t feel tormented while waiting for the new episodes.

I tried to focus on just following Japanese only drama to practice listening, but I don’t feel the motivation anymore.

Lesson to note: don’t try too hard or go extreme on one thing. Be balance. Like diet, when you deprived yourself from one thing, the rebound will be double.

Second, about races in 2017.

This week, I tidied up my agenda, joined the first half which I took out, with the second half, prepped the 2018 agenda and rewrote the first 3 months into it.

I told myself, you did well in 2017.

Maybe, it sounds like self consolation, but I think, most of the times we didn’t acknowledge ourselves enough. Get jealous when friends are happy, competing who has more happy things or even sufferings. Strange isn’t it. But that happened to me sometimes.

After tidying up the agenda, it made me wanted to tidy up one of my wardrobe as well. The sport gears and the race bibs & medals. Here are the 2017 collection.

2017 medals

Then, it leads to find the precious years medals

All medals

I found the “key” that started all of these, it flashed back to 2010.

Yellow Ribbon 2010

“One ring to rule them all” for me is “one run to start them all” but I’m happy where I am today. Perhaps it’s one of the best decision I made few years ago.

Lesson to note: when you challenge yourself for something and you need to practice or train for it, it will teach you something. Whether you cross the finish line or not. It’s the journey.

(Which leads to) Third, about younger self.

I find that sometimes my younger self is wiser. When I read my past blog, or randomly found my notes/scribble commenting on my life events or decided to do something (most of it on impulse) which makes my current self think it was a great decision or cool thing to do or try.

Or maybe I’m just getting old and sentimental :p

Lesson to note: being organized is good, but embrace the mess, then you’ll have less stress. Consider the risk, and be spontaneous like your younger days. Take the leap.

Fourth, about relationship

I learned *A LOT* from people around me this year. I learned first hand that not all of them are genuine. Friendship and/or relationship need 2 hands to clap. You can’t be the only one, always, making effort. It’s hard to let go at first, but I think it’s necessary to move on. But, through that journey, I also find gems. The people who genuinely care about you. There are 2 types of people will come to your life, to care about you and to teach you something.

Lesson to note: trust with caution. Don’t afraid to open up first. Reach out. Be warm. Be genuine.

Lastly, about priorities.

There was a quote in Pinterest sometime ago, since tumblr and Pinterest had owned my souls for the past 2 months, that if you’re not willing to change, don’t complain about the situation you’re in. Sometime I dragged myself to take action, but I kept complaining about it. You’re not a tree, do something.

While there are few things had been bugging me, some are milder than the rest. And again, I repeat the mantra that don’t rush it. Take it easy. Do it one thing at a time.

Lesson to note: there will be time for everything. Things may seem to fall apart, but it allows right piece to come at the right place.

So, that’s it! Merry Christmas! And Happy New Year. May the force always be with you.

Luffy Christmas

Thank you 2017. You’re great. Thanks for all the life lessons, friendships and adventure.

Hope 2018 will be kind to me. I’ll be at your care. 2018年よろしくお願いしますね。

Breaking out from our shell

Last week we have a year end dinner with colleagues and as usual, there was an award presentation for long service with the company.

One of them is our top leader.

In his acceptance speech, he said that he was quite laid back person until his wife decided to quite her work, to focus on their family. He added that his wife was having a good career, better than him. At that point of time.

Her sacrifice made him able to focus on his career. To evolve into the current him.

I find his sharing about earlier part of his life journey was quite inspirational.

At that party I asked myself, when will I have that moment? To have the heart to leave some of the things I really like to do now and focus on the few activities only.

I find it easy to adopt a new thing, make it to be a habit, but I have difficulties cutting them down. Eventually I dropped a few to date, through “natural selection”. As the time goes and I don’t have time to do it. And mostly my logical self made me to do the important things first.

It also reminded me of what one of my friend told me sometime back. That at certain stage of my life, I’ll turn into someone who is boring and safe. He sees me as someone who thinks life is like adventure and big playground.

(Phew)

I haven’t found the answer yet, whether I’ll change quite drastically, or when I’ll have that moment, or what kind of person I’ll be in 5 or 10 years time.

But one thing I know, life is like running a marathon. It’s a long run. Rushing it won’t help me to reach it faster as I might ran out gas earlier and walk at much slower pace to complete it.

Do you have similar experience like this? Did you find the answer? How did you overcome it?

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I thought this is a teen drama like Juno, but I was wrong. It was deeper than just a drama. This movie drew my attention while browsing what movie I should watch during flight to Shanghai because of Emma Watson and Ezra Miller. You know Emma Watson, but Ezra caught my attention because of The Flash in Justice League.

And with Ant-Man inside too.

There are many memorable lines, but there are two which I find very memorable:

One, which I feel so meaningful is

Sam: Why do I and everyone I love pick people who treat us like we’re nothing?

Charlie: We accept the love we think we deserve

which actually what Bill, Charlie’s teacher told him earlier.

It made me think, that are we being picky then? Or will you stay in bad relationship and endure it, because you think you’re not deserve better?

Anyway, I’ll let that line linger in my mind for awhile.

Second line which I really like is

We can’t choose where we come from but we can choose where we go from there

quote

It’s just like the water which gives hope in the desert. Okay I was being too dramatic here.

By the way, there is a continuation of the conversation between Charlie and Bill

Charlie: Can we make them know that they deserve more?

Bill: We can try.

So, it’s really a good movie. It made me laugh, cry and think about many things. If you haven’t watched it, give it a go.

And let me know what do you think. Or share your fave lines from the movie.

Mid week random thought

After watching Thor Ragnarok I found a new MarvelOTP #Thorki

chibi thorki

I used to adore #Clintasha who is portmanteau from Clint Barton and Natasha Romanov

Anyway with the army of Marvel fan in Tumblr or Pinterest, it’s easy to be sucked in into world of shipping, really. You can find many pairings too.

Then I saw a post saying “when you shipped your OTP, it’s actually something that you look for in your relationship”

(I can’t seem to be able to find the post anymore. It took me awhile to post this, because I was hoping to find the post)

So, looking at my OTP list, no wonder I’m still single. I’ll need to find another OTP then 🙂